Guess I've been neglecting my blog again...just haven't felt like writing much.
The Ex has moved out and it's very nice to feel comfortable in my own home again. I still worry about my Son, but he seems to be adjusting well. I'm hoping that once the attorney is paid in full, to go back to court and change the Ex's visitation time. I think it would be nice for the boys if they had more time together.
I am now a dog owner. Sadie came home last Friday and seems to be settling in OK. She is a 2 month old border collie and is very smart. Already she's learned Sit and is working on Stay. She knows Crate, but ignores that command. Philip adores her! It is frustrating at times for me, but overall, I think it was the right decision to adopt her.
I volunteered to host Thanksgiving at my house this year. This has prompted me to work on cleaning the house from top to bottom. I will be responsible for the turkey, potatoes and gravy. Again, I sometimes worry that I made the right decision with this. Oh well...guess I'll find out on Thanksgiving!!
Nights are the hardest for me. I get so lonely after Philip goes to bed. Sadie helps, but she's not the same as a person to talk to. It helps sometimes having a roommate and T. is a great roommate. He loves Philip, plays with Sadie and is nice to chat with. He is a wonderful friend.
It would be nice to meet someone, even though I worry that I'm not ready to start dating again but at the same time, would very much like to be asked out...ah well. I understand that most of the time, dating is just not in the stars for single moms...I can only hope and pray that when the day comes and I am asked out, that I don't pass on what could be great opportunity because of fear...
Well, it's getting late and Sadie knows I'm still awake and REALLY would like out of the crate...time for me to shut down for the night so she will too.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Hrm
Well, on the drive home tonight from Buffy night, I thought I figured out what to write about...but now, I really don't feel like writing.
The biggest thing right now is my Ex is moving out this weekend. I've got a lot of conflicting emotions right now that I haven't figured out how to put it into words. I'm worried about our son, I feel bad for hurting him, even though he hurt me first. I'm angry, hurt and sometimes very bitter about the whole thing. Moving on should hopefully get easier once he's out of the house.
*sigh* It's late and I'm off to bed...another long day at work tomorrow and who knows what the weekend will bring??
The biggest thing right now is my Ex is moving out this weekend. I've got a lot of conflicting emotions right now that I haven't figured out how to put it into words. I'm worried about our son, I feel bad for hurting him, even though he hurt me first. I'm angry, hurt and sometimes very bitter about the whole thing. Moving on should hopefully get easier once he's out of the house.
*sigh* It's late and I'm off to bed...another long day at work tomorrow and who knows what the weekend will bring??
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Ah the sickness...
Well, I'm finally recovering from the head cold...I went to work on Monday, but really should have stayed home. Today, I slept most of the day and am finally feeling much better.
Unfortunately, since I've been sick, I really don't have much to say today. So I leave you with this short post as I wander in to shower and get ready for bed.
Unfortunately, since I've been sick, I really don't have much to say today. So I leave you with this short post as I wander in to shower and get ready for bed.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Erg...
I'm not posting anything new tonight...a head cold snuck up on me today and I am going to bed....
Friday, October 2, 2009
TGIF!
Happy Friday!
Just another standard Friday, except the Ex had a game tonight and wasn't home tonight...woohoo! It was kinda nice to have the house to myself...until I heard the Police pounding on the door at the neighbor's house. Erg...2 police cars in front and 4 down the street. As much as I enjoy sitting on the front porch swing, I decided that outside was not the place to be. All is quiet now, with no sign of what happened. *shrug*
That's it for now...not much to say tonight. I'll be up early tomorrow to clean house and run to the store before my Pampered Chef party. After that, who knows? It's normally a Star Wars night for me, but G. hasn't been up to running it lately with his new store opening and everything.
Night all!
Just another standard Friday, except the Ex had a game tonight and wasn't home tonight...woohoo! It was kinda nice to have the house to myself...until I heard the Police pounding on the door at the neighbor's house. Erg...2 police cars in front and 4 down the street. As much as I enjoy sitting on the front porch swing, I decided that outside was not the place to be. All is quiet now, with no sign of what happened. *shrug*
That's it for now...not much to say tonight. I'll be up early tomorrow to clean house and run to the store before my Pampered Chef party. After that, who knows? It's normally a Star Wars night for me, but G. hasn't been up to running it lately with his new store opening and everything.
Night all!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Memories
Just a short post for now...it is almost midnight and I have work in the morning...
On my way to Buffy night, I could smell wood smoke in the air. Boy, the memories that brought out. Growing up in Lewiston, we used to have a wood stove and my Mom could really get a fire going. I could smell the wood smoke and it was almost as if I was back in Lewiston, stepping out onto the porch on a cold winter night, headed out to see my friends. Or a lazy, coldSunday afternoon, curled up in front of the fireplace with a book, wearing shorts and a t-shirt (like I said, Mom builds a kick a$$ fire!).
All this, from the chill fall Boise air and a faint sent of wood smoke. I really miss that wood stove...helping Dad to stack and store the wood every fall.
Fall weather itself brings all kinds of childhood memories out...chill mornings walking to the bus stop, the smell of leaves, frost, and wood smoke...the excitement of a new year at school...seeing old friends and making new ones.
Now, I'm helping my Son create his own childhood memories. Annual trips to the pumpkin patch and so on...I worry sometimes that he will grow up angry and bitter about the Divorce, I hope and pray that someday he will understand that even though we no longer love each other, that no matter what we will always Love him.
And so, I'm done writing for today.
On my way to Buffy night, I could smell wood smoke in the air. Boy, the memories that brought out. Growing up in Lewiston, we used to have a wood stove and my Mom could really get a fire going. I could smell the wood smoke and it was almost as if I was back in Lewiston, stepping out onto the porch on a cold winter night, headed out to see my friends. Or a lazy, coldSunday afternoon, curled up in front of the fireplace with a book, wearing shorts and a t-shirt (like I said, Mom builds a kick a$$ fire!).
All this, from the chill fall Boise air and a faint sent of wood smoke. I really miss that wood stove...helping Dad to stack and store the wood every fall.
Fall weather itself brings all kinds of childhood memories out...chill mornings walking to the bus stop, the smell of leaves, frost, and wood smoke...the excitement of a new year at school...seeing old friends and making new ones.
Now, I'm helping my Son create his own childhood memories. Annual trips to the pumpkin patch and so on...I worry sometimes that he will grow up angry and bitter about the Divorce, I hope and pray that someday he will understand that even though we no longer love each other, that no matter what we will always Love him.
And so, I'm done writing for today.
Guilt and Stuff
So, it's been 4 months since I started my blog and look, I'm a bad monkey for not posting anything. /sigh
I decided that today would be the end of the neglect. Even if I'm the only who ever reads this, I am darn well going to start blogging more...whether it's just adding in a few random thoughts for the day, pictures, or a deep down pouring of the heart, doesn't matter, I will sit down every night before bed and type.
I'm cooking dinner right now and after that, it'll be time to get the boy ready for bed. It's Thursday, and in my world that means Buffy night at H's house. I will type more tonight when I get home.
I decided that today would be the end of the neglect. Even if I'm the only who ever reads this, I am darn well going to start blogging more...whether it's just adding in a few random thoughts for the day, pictures, or a deep down pouring of the heart, doesn't matter, I will sit down every night before bed and type.
I'm cooking dinner right now and after that, it'll be time to get the boy ready for bed. It's Thursday, and in my world that means Buffy night at H's house. I will type more tonight when I get home.
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